Fall is totally over. After almost two and a half  years of not having any distractions, the end of it finally came. Boy meets girl and girl meets boy. There is just one problem; the girl is fooled by her own emotions from  a previous lover and the boy got dragged from the folly and perplexed emotions of the girl. The boy’s brain is so experienced and totally rational. It tells him that the girl is not ready yet and she is just in need of someone to be there for her. The boy’s stupid heart makes him feel elated because of the presence of the girl he adores. It makes him feel loved by by the girl, a feeling that the boy had never felt for a long time since the fall of 2007.  The boy had guarded his heart well from all hurt and now it is so vulnerable again. He is torn apart between the possibility of being loved and hurt in the process.  Love and hurt are two inseparable things. The people around him advised this boy to just enjoy the process and stop thinking of the things that could happen. It seems impossible for the boy not to worry because of his inclination to worry and because of his vow not to commit the same mistakes again. All the boy can do now is pray and trust the good Lord for discernment  and care.

This picture was taken last night. My face is so rough hahahaah! Blame it to the eggs and chicken I ate within the last days.  I am going to be in  a job interview tomorrow.  I reviewed a little in case they give tests. If I get in, good. If not, then it only means that God has another plan for me.

Everybody asks lots of question about the future.  As for me, I really make a lot of them these days. I am getting old, and in contrast  my career as a teacher is very slow. Oh sorry, I am not a teacher anymore. Now, I am just a plain tutor. I have been doing this job for almost a year since I left the academy. Aside from teaching, I am devoting a lot of my time in photography. All my plans right now are related to photography. I teach because I want to save money for camera equipment and start a wedding photography business. I don’t know if photography is really for me. Before, my spirit is so high in pursuing my photography career. Now, I am doubting if I could really do it. Should I continue pursuing it?  Or just stay in teaching? I should ask the Master about it  for discernment and guidance.

Many of my friends are telling me to get a girlfriend. They always tell me that I am so picky. Picky? Not really. I just don’t want to get headache from girls these days. The girl on the picture is my friend. A crazy friend in high school. This shot was taken inside our house.

Some of the pictures I took while having no work. It’s day 7 of me being jobless.  I’ll try to get in to a language center as a head teacher again. I hope the salary they offer is humane.

My student before in SJV II.  Four hour straight in the morning, nothing could be so boring that way.

I felt it again.

When will they ever learn how to treat other people nice?  Maybe I am unfortunate to be in a poor country but I am fortunate of having values in a poor country. Enough said.